Its been a day but it feels like ages ago. Fights can be so emotionally stressing. I miss you my SO. This time however, I need understanding. I need to know Im being heard. I know its just a misunderstanding, but probably we need to work out on our pride. Its very hurtful. Probably we need time. But hell, I miss you so much..

Found this quote on my email. Made me wonder if Im really in love. Made me realize that love is a really strong word. I hope I can accomplish at least half of the things in the list for me to say in full confidence that I have really loved. But for this one person I will. I know there are a lot of things to polish, rough edges to smoothen out -- but for him I will. I might not be perfect, it might not be right, but one thing's for sure --- Im nothing without love.

"Lover never gives up.
Love cares more for others than for self.
Love doesn't want what it doesn't have.
Love doesn't strut,
Doesn't have a swelled head,
Doesn't force itself on others,
Isn't always 'me first',
Doesn't fly off the handle,
Doesn't keep score of the sins of others,
Doesn't revel when others grovel,
Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth,
Puts up with anything,
Trusts in God always,
Always looks for the best,
Never looks back,
But keeps going to the end. "

Love never dies. What we have will be over someday; believing will end; understanding will reach its limit. We know only a portion of the truth; without love we are incomplete. But when COMPLETE arrives, our incompletes will be cancelled.

He makes me laugh, he makes me cry. He makes me smile, he makes me sigh. He makes me feel appreciated, he makes me feel vulnerable. He makes me do things I have never dreamt of doing before. He makes me feel scared. He infuriates me. He makes me feel blessed. He gives me valuable lessons. He confuses me. He understands me. He makes me feel lost.

But the most important thing, he loves me.

What do I do without him?

This is my last day here in NCL. And its been so much fun!! I have always wanted to visit London, and I had the chance to fulfill that dream! (It would have been soooo much better if Prince William, HP casts or David Beckham were with me, but I guess that's too much!! ) Now only Milan is missing from my list of "Places to be before I die".. Other places would be perks to that list. (Im scheduled to go to Hungary this October)

I had a lot of friends here, my teammates in Forecast1 project gave me a t-shirt (Angel of the North) as a farewell gift.. It so cute. I'll wear it on the opening day of Harry Potter!!

What's the time? Oh my, its 12 midnight and yeah Im still working.. Good thing I have the telly and mp3 player with me, keeping me company in my lonely hotel room.. Last time I did this work process, I finished at 8am in the morning!! Gosh, I dont want that to happen again.. I need to sleep, I am human after all!!

Anyways, the good thing is that I will be going home this weekend, Ive stayed too long here in Newcastle. I love the place but I hate the food and the weather. Ever since Ive been here, it never stopped raining (ok thats an exaggeration..). My theraphy was to shop (what else?). My best buy so far is my DKNY bag, got it for 30% off!!! Aside from shopping, I did some tour.. Best places Ive been that really awed me was 1.) Alnwick Castle but commonly known as the Hogwarts Castle 2.) Platform 9 3/4 at King's Cross Train Station 3.) London's Eye 4.) Big Ben 5.) The London Bridge 5.) Kensington Palace and 6.) Buckingham palace ( I was hoping to see Prince Willian there).

Ok gotta go back to work, I want to finish sooner so that I can sleep some more.. Atta!

To anyone who wants to view my pictures in Toronto, hehe goodluck na lang! Hope di ko masira araw niyo..heee (Sorry, frustrated model ako eh!)


http://s77.photobucket.com/albums/j57/mutya_p3/

I got this one from Chikikay and I think its fun!!


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[adjective]:

Smells like teen spirit

'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com</td>

Nakakainis na tong kasama ko dito sa Canada.. Lam mo yun, di naman bingi nagbibingi bingihan! nakakapika na.. Sobra kung mangdeadma! Kainis na talaga, tapos may news pa na maeextend ako dito.. Ano?? Tatagalan pa ang pagsasama namin! Shucks, ideport na lang ako!

Tapos yung isa naman nagttrain sakin, sobrang kupad. Di marunong magdecide kung kelan irrelevant na yung meeting namin or not. Bakit ako isinama sa mga ito! Ano bang naging kasalanan ko! Waaah!!

I feel so all alone (and pretty) in here.. But the apartment's great! I have two bedrooms, a huge living room, a kitchen with everything, two dining rooms, a laundry room and two bathrooms!!!